Fun Emails! Written in 2005! oh how time flies!!

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I am xxxxxxx. I am the eldest daughter of xxxxxx. I am the eldest who climbed mountain on my daddy's legs. I am the daughter who thought the world of her daddy. I am the daughter who grew up with and without him, but his thoughts and heart always within hers. I am the daughter who went to the movies with him, who sat on his lap and learned how to drive in the park. I am the daughter, who loved him so much, even if mean things flew out of her mouth sometimes. I am the daughter who looked up to her father-strived to be more like him—an effigy of love, affection, vision – a beacon of light.This is what many daughters think of their dads as they grow up. It is not unique. With time, and age, children grow up. They realize that their dad's are not perfect- that they make mistakes. That they are HUMAN. I've known that for a long time now. And I still love him.I am HUMAN. I am RASH. I too, make many mistakes. Perhaps this letter is another one in my life. What do I do? Can I reason with you? Can I ask you to STOP fucking my Dad? Can I ask HIM to STOP this despicable affair?I am ANGRY. I am HORRIFIED. I am SICK TO MY STOMACH. Did you really think I wouldn't find out? Did my Dad? He raised me to be a smart woman. Unfortunately, he made a grave mistake. He underestimated just HOW smart I was. Did he think I didn't notice sneaky online msn messages in the middle of the night? No person does business that late. Who was he talking to? The clues, the signs were there from the beginning. I think all parents underestimate just how much their children see. We are ears. We are sight. We know. And the second you take that for granted, is the second you will get CAUGHT.First of all, don't deny it. Don't try and weasel your way out of it. That would insult us both. It is BENEATH me to explain how I know. I just do. Do I have SOLID, SUBSTANTIAL PROOF? Let's say, MORE THAN ENOUGH- enough to fill a book.To my knowledge, this affair of yours has been going on for at least a year. Do you know he is MARRIED? Do you know that my MOM'S name is xxxxxx? She is a PERSON bound to him by marriage and the past that they share. I am looking at their wedding photo right now. She is beautiful. She is skinny, 20 years old (almost 3 years younger than me now) and she is naïve. I look at her smiling in this photo, and wonder….does she know her husband will be unfaithful in her marriage? Does she know that he will not only betray her, but turn a BLIND EYE to his family?This is what hurts me most. He made a CONSCIOUS decision your first night together to BETRAY US- to STAB US IN THE BACK. I always knew he was a selfish person, but not THIS selfish. How could he? How could he turn his back on us? Your beloved LTZ is leading a DOUBLE life. Do you know that? He is my father, xxxx spokesperson and leader, Ripplecards believer. He is jovial, he is perfection (to those who do not know him that well.) You know a different side of him. One I will never know. One that I do not recognize and do not want to know. I wonder how many sweet things he calls you, the saccharine pouring out of his mouth. And how many times you say you love him. I don't BLAME you for loving him. He is a WONDERFUL catch…a great guy. What I DO blame you for is being a SUPREME HYPOCRITE. You, of all people….Ripplecards writer. Do you actually believe the shit you spout out to people? The people you coach? As you are taking part in my dad's extramarital affair? Your actions make me sick.Your favorite Ripplecard:My every act makes a difference in someone's life. I choose to make it a positive one.If this truly is your favorite Ripplecard, I don't think I have to point out the SUPREME hypocrisy you have exhibited by your actions. Every word of your Ripplecard is true though. YOUR EVERY ACT DID MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN MY FAMILY'S LIFE. You and my dad's CHOICE to do this HAS affected my life. Do you realize you have taken part in the DESTRUCTION of my family? Do you even care every time you fuck my Dad and bestow your kisses and "I love you's" to him, you are breaking my family apart. Ripping it apart?I just want you to know that your actions DO have ramifications. That your CHOICE is NOT a positive one. That it is a DESTRUCTIVE ONE.How can you go on handing out your Ripplecards to people knowing how evil your actions are? I want you to think about that from now on. EVERY time you pass one of your Ripplecards…KNOW that it is a farce. That you, yourself, do not follow it.Perhaps you didn't know my dad was married…DOUBTFUL. Maybe my dad told you he and his wife have an agreement, an open marriage. I don't know what my dad told you. What I do know, is that they do NOT have an open marriage. That my mom WOULD be VERY upset…that if she ever found out about this…it would DESTROY her. It would DEVASTATE her. I don't expect you to care about my mom. You and my Dad's actions have clearly shown you don't. But I DO. And I will do everything in my power to protect her, the INNOCENT. She does NOT DESERVE this. She is the innocent party. She works every day so hard, to support us. She is blind to my dad's DOUBLE LIFE. And I want to keep it that way.I am a mixture of feelings. Why am I writing this letter to you? Because I am SPITEFUL. I am RASH. I am HUMAN. Please forgive me for this letter, but DO take into account how I feel, and that your actions DO affect people. Please don't be so selfish as to not see that.My dad does not know any of this. I have not confronted him. As far as he knows, things are going peachy, and he can't wait to "spend your first night together in your new nest."I am going to let you tell him in one of your little midnight msn chats or let you forward him this email. You can tell him yourself that I know… Why? Because it is BENEATH me to discuss this with him. Right now, I think he is vile. I am so angry and my whole image of him has been SHATTERED into a million pieces.I know my Dad likes his freedom. He wants power. He does not like people holding a trump card over his head. I am fearful that when he does find out that I know,that he will just lie down like a coward and tell my mom because he is TOO SELFISH not to hurt her. I really hope he is not THAT selfish. I really hope that he sees my mom doesn't deserve this.Do not be mistakened, I do NOT blame you for everything. I am not that immature. I know that he is half responsible, if not more so, because he SHUNNED his family for this affair. I do not want to discount your feelings for him, or his for you. I don't doubt that you love him, or that he feels a certain connection with you. I know that love can make you do CRAZY things. I have experienced it first hand this past year. But I DO KNOW. That I would NEVER cheat on someone, and I have RESPECT for other people and their families-that I actually think about my actions and how it would affect people.You and my Dad might be older than me, but I am only 22, soon to be 23, and have learned this lesson even better than you. Shame on you for having to have someone so young tell you how WRONG your actions are-how HURTFUL they are.I hope that you do not see my Dad again. (though I know he is due to arrive in Hong Kong soon) Right now, I wish Ripplecards was demolished because it is the most idiotic thing. What is it? I would say it is a nicely packaged illusion. It is a mask that you are hawking out to the naïve. A mask to cover humanity's evil ways. If you guys love each other so much, then you two decide what is the next option. Is my dad really willing to sacrifice his eldest, his youngest, his wife and his extended family for you? I don't know. I certainly never thought he would RISK it. It is up to you to pose that question to him, and up to you to ask YOURSELF if you want this.I know a lot of people would be DEVASTATED to find out my dad is a mask. I know his eldest daughter is.

Sincerely,
XXXX
Daughter of XXXXX
Sister of XXXXX
Daughter of XXXXX
And Daughter of your "LTZ"
-so disgusted by you